wow, all bad

Tonight is just one of those nights when it's all bad. I don't know if it's hormones or what, but I am having a time of it.

Spoke in depth with Lauren about her brother and even if I don't directly feel it, it's like an earthquake is brewing in my psyche. If there are any telepaths around, their inner richter scale is probably spewing erratic lines all over their third eye. Sorry about that.

I'm the queen of composure. I'm together. Everything is fine. Light a white candle anointed with olive oil and lavender, take two chamomile pills, burn some sage and meditate to the Goddess.

But it's so not. I swear, if I had more time, I would create a blog of my life. Every entry could be another year, though some of the hours I've endured could take the place of a year easily.

I don't mean to be all "poor me" about it, but without knowing me, you probably don't realize what I've been through. My experiences are nothing compared to others out there I'm sure, but they're all I know and for that, I am sorry.

World turns, life goes on. I do love being here on this lovely planet, but this whole gift of emotion that's been bestowed upon us humanoids can be quite horrid. Trust me, I would rather not be a robot, but I'd much prefer to bottle the Christmas morning feeling and gulp it down when ever times get rough.

Anyway, soon Laurenien and I are going to adventure to New Orleans for some old time witchy fun, (soon meaning in the next year.) She claims to love me the most, but I love her the most times infinity!